Loosing Loser

Thank you to P for the comment on loosing. No seriously! I made a small joke of my mistake and later thought about it and let it cook a bit. You are right, of course, no seriously conscientious pedant gets something like that wrong do they? Words are important, the right ones vital. I'm glad you pointed it out.
When I was in Primary School I was topping the Spelling Bees by the last two grades, even beating the two bright boys, both of whom incidentaly I still have sporadic contact with and one of whom provided and shared with me, a wonderful mother I have loved dearly for decades. She gave me the cuddly mothering an adoptee so badly needed, loved and cosseted me, when she wasn't being tough and scary! I lived with her and the family for quite a time and she taught me to cook, decent , real food, the love of which was in my genes, both sides. She taught me too, something of how to live after abuse, how to manage life and family loyalty. It wasn't all roses, but it sure didn't smell of boiled cabbage!
Anyway, thinking about this spelling thing, I realised there is a small handful of words I get twisted up if I am tired or pushed. Not the simple words, or the unique, easily recognised ones, but that little bunch which includes where, were, thought, through and of course lose, loose but not lost, a familiar and close word. Thank you P for providing the opportunity to think this through and to finally acknowledge that I blank out sometimes; adoptee PTSD and the feelings come back without the pictures; familiar territory with adoptee PTSD. I could place how it happened in time and where, just by elimination, but have no memory other than the feelings. Many of you will be familiar with this and as you probably do, I work round it - mostly!
It pointed up too, what a difficult but amazing year it was last year for progress in adoption matters for us Aussie adoptees, or some of us anyway.We were bullied and harassed by a few mothers, formed our own contact groups and out of that have made many friendships, set up a website and have some facebook groups up and running.
Here in my State, some of us have found each other for the first time, most never having know anyone before who was placed in the same orphange/home. Progress may be slow, but these developments take time and care, as we discovered in the initial attempts last year at country-wide group support. Adoptees trigger each other, sometimes quite profoundly, words are sometimes difficult with deep meaning and significance and experiences can set off chain reactions. Mothers have been very supportive, some have been very abusive but crystalised intent and purpose.There have been tragedies and tough times. Lies and deceipt. Presumption and misunderstandings. We now await the Report on forced adoption for which many of us wrote submissions and gave evidence. The words of the Senators, how they responded to our words and what they recommend will be of great significance. Those who view us as losers may find they're denied the last laugh.